I had a dream that I was living with 2 lesbians. There was an intense emotional intimacy there so I knew I belonged in spite of the triad dynamic that had me feeling a bit like an interloper.
One of the women was named Vicki. She was beautiful with short, choppy hair and a “let’s get it done attitude.” There was also Theresa who was pregnant and so quiet I kept forgetting she was there yet the moment Theresa entered the room there was an immediate feeling of peace and calm. She had a knowing about her that assuaged all of the anxiety I didn’t even know I was carrying. I remember feeling relaxed and serene as soon as I got past the thought, “oh yeah…she’s here too.”
In real life, I’m divorced and have often joked that because I’m meeting such fascinating women and such disappointing men that I’d consider swinging to the other side – so this dream made me wonder, “was a part of me serious?”
I turned on my light and went to work using one of my most favorite tools ever – a Jungian style dream analysis.
Turns out – I’m imbalanced (was this supposed to be a surprise?). I’m identifying more heavily with my more masculine “get it done” Self than I am with my feminine “quiet power” Self. And the message was, “step into your feminine to fully realize your own power.” Aha….that makes sense – especially since this has been something I’ve been working on for years. (The fact on just caught myself saying “working on” tells me there’s a long way to go yet.)
So – today I embrace the things that made me feel good about my inner world (being present in each moment, breathing deeply, asking myself what I need, meditating and playing). Tomorrow I may forget the lesson and return to the outer but I have been empowered with these unique faces representing the different sides of me and their names are Vicki and Theresa. Thank goodness for the oneness
seeking knowing duo that lives inside of me waiting to give birth to some greatness I have yet to understand.
Inner lesbians, I cherish you (me) and I thank you (me).
How do you work step into your creative, intuitive, peaceful, present feminine?
And yes…I capitalize words like Love, Self and Happiness because they just feel that important to me.